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Country: United States
State: Connecticut
Birthday: 6/2/1982
Gender: Male
Interests: Human rights, Social work, cooking, reading
Expertise: Umm a lot of random stuff like welding but not much that can get me a job right now =)
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
Message: message me
Member Since:
1/8/2003
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| Im not sure why im writting. A year ago things changed for me adn alot of otehres. For me the past year ha been ruff, i have been admatied 4 times. The local ER knows me knows my case and when i walk in they know how to treat me. They know i need to be admited they know to give me high dose meds and a ham and chese sandwhich and i wll sit and wait for the forms. Combared to the others im not combative im not yelling i ask for nothing but help. I dont leave my flat much i dont want others to get hurt , the few freands i have in the area try to get me out but for the most part im ok beging alone. Uconn understands now they see past the madeness in to the fact when im on meds I can do the job get the work done and get As of Bs. The Doctors cant fgure out what i have basical i have at leeast 3 disordrs and no name fits it. But the nightmares dont stop, the flash to last spring tht wake me at 4 am wont ssto. The words that were said last april still roll in my head and only now am i reaching out to others and asking " can god love me even though the illness." " will he stike me down if the dellisions com back if the screaming come back" . I guses thats y im writting as others feel healing can happen so step one: Im sorry m sorry for all i did im sory for the hurt im sorry for the fact the meds stop working and i was terfied of drugs i never got help. Im sorry for litioning to the yelling and not you guys or god. Im sorry for it all
Daniel J Pattenden
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| after a lot of thought i am no longer posting here for the time beging i will keep it active in case i change my mind but at this time no more posting after 4 years im done
dan
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| in good news. Uconn let em back in . Need to get a lot of work done this summer i pray i cna do it. I am still puting things in order more will come in time
Dan
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| In the next few weeks i will psot ehre mor of the truth about Daniel John Pattenden,. But bbefore i do that let me say i am sorry for those i hurt, those that i hrut and did not know i hrut them as i was so out of it. I am sorry for all i did in my madness. For all the les, al the hrut, the minplutaion. But that was not Dan that was someone i dont ful udnernatd yet . In time more will come to light
Dan
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| im of cell/ pager for the next ten days =p << dose happpy dance>>
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